Leeah 6 weeks

Ok, so this sweet girl is officially 6 wks old today. It is really hard to believe she has been with us for that long already. She is plumping up nicely and those cheeks are becoming extremely kissable. She is about 9lbs now, so right on track. The sickel cell stuff we wont know anything until she is 3mths old. They have to take so much blood from her to run all the tests and she is just too tiny yet. We are still waking up at night, but down to only one time, which I can deal with. She still loves to be awake at 3:00am so I have been on the couch the last few nights giving her the opportunity to cry it out a bit and go back to sleep. Seems to be getting better, she was only awake for about 20 min after eating this morning. She is becoming more and more social every day. She is starting to smile at me and the kids which just melts your heart.

As far as her "status" with regards to CPS, her Dad has a court hearing next week and if he has all his paperwork in line she will go with him right away. Funny thing is I think I would be ok with that. I have learned alot about myself over these past 6 wks, like I am not that young and energetic like I used to be. But also just trusting God to care for her. And of course we would be sad for her because her future would be such a question mark. We know the kind of life we would give her, and we can't control the kind of life she would have with him. It is an interesting crossroads for sure. I guess the bottom line, as with our own children, she belongs to God pure and simple. We have no "claim" on any of these kids, we are simply entrusted to care, love and teach them about God, He takes care of everything else.