Desire

Funny thing about life, sometimes we can get lost in wants verses needs. During the peeks and valleys of this roller coaster we are on I actually find a bit more clarity...both can be considered desires. Of course there are the obvious material wants and needs, but then there are those emotional wants and needs, or desires of the heart, that do not always seem so black and white...but rather a mix of the two, making gray.
*I desire to play more with my kids
*I desire to laugh and be a lot less ridged
*I desire peace...in my family and my heart
*I desire God to be ever present and the complete focus of my heart and mind
*I desire deep, emotional and trusting relationships
*I desire joy in all circumstances, an area I struggle with daily
*I desire complete surrender of my heart to the will of God
*I desire to jump into life, full of hope and excitement
*I desire for all my loved ones who are struggling to seek out the help they need
*I desire contentment, whether in want or need
*I desire a humble heart in the face of God's grace and discipline

You know, the bottom line is our family is struggling with some heavy things right now, some things we did not even see coming, but the really cool part in all of this is how I see my hubby and I drawing closer and closer to our LORD. Do we desire difficult circumstance or people in our life, well no, but if it brings us into a better understanding of God than I will try joyfully to walk through the fire. And the part of this that is almost to awesome for words is what is waiting on the other side. I have no idea about how things will turn out but they will be for my good and the best for my family. It makes me smile to be this hopeful, not focused on what I fear but in what I know. We worship a really cool God!!!